ONE DAY on television I saw three stars holding signs that said REAL MEN DO NOT SUPPORT ISRAHELL. It was an odd message. Justin Timberlake and Ashton Kurtur were two of the stars, and I cannot remember the third. When a message flashes and then goes away, you have to be quick enough to catch the meaning. Pretty radical stuff for tv, and why I suppose it was only shown one day... it stuck with me. I do not like the idea of anyone deciding what real man is, but they made a good point. They were actors who could suffer serious real consequences.... though they all have enough money that if they never worked another day in their lives, they would be fine.
I have a slight history with Ashton that it no longer seems fair to point out... he was on my side in a war that never should have been fought. A madness brought on by the divide and conquer over lords, who want anyone blamed except the guilty -- the oligarchy, of which the great powers have people within....
I do not know what to think of people who were racist in a race war most of them probably did not want.... or so I imagine. Maybe there has been more underground murders than are known in the shadow war, I certainly learned about plenty of them. They charged me with signaling I wanted a race war, despite all the writing I had done my entire life on the topic, and finding myself thinking well beyond such delusions... from staring at a guy without my glasses on, not realizing he was someone who I fought with so to speak on facebook messenger, and who I used to kind of hate, a racist black guy whose homophobia was the first thing he brought up... it was weird. Anyways he was being mean, said something about how I made no money, so I said something about him making no money for a guy with four kids, who he told me were his one day... he thinks I am a racist because I responded in kind to his slam, in a way that triggered a problem of fatherless children that racists point out.... and a letter I sent to Jessie Jackson, an email, that I thought had no effect at all. I was asking him to work with me to make real changes, and added the gauntlet or start your run poetically. I would not have done any of these things if I knew my behavior was being scrutinized.
I wanted to break thru that fourth wall so badly at that point... everything was taking place between myself and the media, because I was technically a hostage of the blacks, who controlled Chicago in the underground world... because a racist group had claimed me as their leader.
I kept thinking it would happen sooner or later. Occasionally it did, like the woman walking by, telling me very seriously, there are a lot of blue eyed people in Alaska. I am not sure if she is telling me to go here to escape, or that they think my wanting to Alaska set them off. The Race War was there, long before, exists as an entity all it's own around me... something to be examined but nothing that makes rational sense, except as a play with the pawns on the chess board.
The radio had been there from the beginning, making comments about things that were pertinent to me, etc... showed a loyalty, I never understood why I lost that loyalty, unless they truly did believe that I wanted to happen what happened.... no, I was just ill informed as to what the hell was going on. I remember one of them lynn braimer really going into me, during the period I was being accused of ordering the murder of people who were in this religion that started around me and my book... why the hell I would ever do that is beyond me... I would have wanted to meet them, dreamt of such a thing happening, being around people who just knew who I was and I did not have to fight any perception.... just sit there as the Christ. I felt and still feel the mysterious aspects of my life prove there is a God. And other things less believable and inconsequential. I am not writing to convince any of you... just to show you there is another narrative than the one they shoved down your throat, or at least accused me of.
Will Ferrell comes on in a one time commercial message saying the truck was named after a general who said oh, let the British slaughter my troops.... I did nothing of the sort. I was not told what was going on with England at all, or I would have made peace if possible. I would never have allowed the slaughter of anyone, let alone soldiers who were fighting with me. Whatever slander you throw at me like that really sticks with me... because I am not going to let slander go without confronting it, and I am not someone to make an enemy of, and if that makes you laugh, then please, laugh all the harder.... and remember how many times I have resurrected, because the truth cannot be crucified and buried away and rewritten as long as I am alive, I am winning.... I told that to someone who asked how I could walk around the neighborhood like I had won... I knew at that point they were going to blame me for the entire matter, after brainwashing me into this thing... that was other than I had been.
The entire public seemed to not want to take into account how maddening my experience was. How I reacted the first time I realized people died, embarrasses me now... I could see them flying through space clearing a path for us to Heaven... I WAS JUST RUNNING FROM THE TRUTH... I wanted to make sense of their deaths, in religious terms, when I had no right... to give my speculation unexamined to the world. I did not want the power I was given, until it was too late to realize the good I could have done... but by the time I learned of this fame, it was too late to capitalize on it and make money to feed the poor and all the dreams I had of what I would do if I ever made a lot of money from my books... but no, that is not going to happen. They ordered me thirteen years ago to only write childrens books or none at all.
I defy them, and my books caused trouble, as they feared. A force had entered the American consciousness of a God among them, Jesus returned, and many believed. I could feel their belief flowing into me in waves... at first... when I first realized God existed and I was the son of God... the made me very happy, as if the world would finally make sense. But I had no magical powers, and other than tv and radio monitoring me and such, my life seemed no different than ever.
The maze is broken now. I remember writing about being in that maze and so pissed about it, before I finally did learn what was going on... it enraged me that I was not told about these things, and that my writing was taken as a lie, and my life as a set of signals to people... messages I could barely believe people used in the ways they did. I put a fucking toy lobster out, and they tortured people with tanning booths. I could not understand how the cruelty was released by my actions.
I knew someone other than me was in control, because I kept hearing about things which I would never advocate, happening. I do not like people trying to control me, and I do not want to try to control people. I would like to be with a people who find a consensus around a few universal ideas, who will fight together, even if it means cutting the heads off the great families... and taking their fortunes for a fund that all the world can be nourished by, instead of this inane elitism. You are not better than anyone else, and it is unseemly to live luxuriously in the hills above the slums... and this is our world.
I think it is product of xenophobia, the one creature fearing anything slightly different, strangers especially who look different, an ape reaction.... that kept us alive through millions of years of evolution, when our kind was of the sorts that they certainly did not mind eating one another. Like when we were fish....
I think culture and acquaintance are the simple anecdotes to racism, and all the isms. Few intellectuals like to be grouped in with their governments, or the sterotypes of their culture, etc...
These are words for those who know; the witting... they are meant to comment on events that are within a context that the general public will more than likely not understand. I AM reclaiming my name here, and responding to the lies about me that fill the heads of the families and the governments and the spies who have filled my life.
Monday, March 27, 2017
never
You expect your racial war to be won by my insurance policy -- that is not going to happen. I WILL NEVER be filled with the rage capable of being that monster if my fair city is attacked. No one will win in a guerrilla war for this city against my force.
Some of you have no idea what you would be walking into/some expect nothing
others way too little
A message was played by throwing the song by the clash with the lines, if Ii stay there will be trouble, if I go there will be trouble.... I did not want the kind of troubles they had going at all, and would not have participated wherever I was. Race wars are a divide and conquer tool. People want the same things, and a few rich at the top can take all that away right now, and have... we live in a world that should be progressing toward paradise, but our priorities got all messed up along the way, when vile men started profiting from war.
I did not where to go and the idea of leaving Chicago, when I had no money and health problems... there was always this assumption by people that I had money, which I never did. I was spending what I had staying stoned enough to deal with what was happening to me. To ignore it. To forget about it for long periods of time, when I could not see my place in the world. When I was told I was hated I was surprised by whom and why? I expected the right wing to despise me but I shared enough of their views that they did not. I am at heart a liberal, and believe collectivism and being an individual is possible; communes filled with artists certainly do not all think alike, disagree heartily on many things, etc.... they simply agree on the essential that mot do. I do not at present think governments or citizens are being responsible. The government needs a centralized leader to push thru change no matter how unpopular it is with the business community.
The trick is the stock market is going to tumble and they have tricked retirees into having all their money there, and I let a criticism about that have a huge effect on me. I wanted to please everyone, and the targets who should have been taken down were often the people who were using me. I am not cruel by nature, I am not hateful.... though Obama made fun of me over the statement, I have always thought of myself as someone who loved everyone in a way. I wrote criticism in voices that were not mine, just jokes to me, being mean to celebrities because everyone was so nice, etc.... spoofing them on my first blog. Gave hateful speeches at a tv conspiracy that I did not understand and took for torture. I spoke to it and acted for it because I could sense gravity but I had no idea. I trusted everyone at first. Now I trust no one at all in the news or on the internet to report on intelligence affairs in any manner that is meaningful to the current situation. Top Secret....
My files are CIA EYES ONLY meaning nothing gets printed, in case they want to just get rid of my file someday with the push of a few buttons. They have me open at the moment and will I would predict as long as they exist, which is a lot less longer than they think. I gave them a second chance for reasons I should not have. Made a rash decision against Bush without ever realizing he was trying to make this right somehow. I just thought if he was firing people in the CIA than they were good guys. I was probably wrong. I would not have done this. There is a lot I would not have done if I knew better. I see why I was portrayed as a Baby.... and the joker/though the Joker as Heath ledger played him was based on me, and he died for that stupid role, was based on my life I felt like I had been totally slandered. I did not understand what purple and green stood for in the intelligence world, though I later learned. Gotham, the latest bathroom show has the Joker with a Cult, a direct reference to me. The Batman fixation with my situation, always trying to destroy me, like they start to call me superman after I did something so now Batman had to kill superman, not some evil villain... because no one in their audience who knew about me was buying their slander anymore.
That film, by using me in a way lot of people hated, caused the death of an actor, and someone to use a guy to shoot up the movie theater when it opened, in Denver, where I guess my power base was. People thought I wanted Colorado, that I was a conqueror at first. One man died to get that on the news.... by getting things in the major media they gave messages to everyone involved across the country. They were doing radical acts at first to get out messages, then the television itself became involved, all part of the fifty year plan... and the tv people were ready, schooled in how the world worked, and about to find themselves being led to a degree by a man who had no idea what was going on out in the world.
To those who died to get me a message.... I swear to you I will never give up the mission that you died for. I will never allow our enemy to have peace without an offer of justice. I will avenge your deaths a hundred times over if I must, though I know you fought so we could overthrow the war makers, and get this countries budget back to the people, instead of the military.... to get rid of the criminals in congress and the senate in one fell blow. Martial Law until the political and judicial system can be reformed. The confiscation of vast resources of hoarded wealth. Those who flee these taxes lose their citizenship, and all properties and businesses confiscated, etc. Hopefully we will get to your money before you do.... I would leave the wealthy with a nice nest egg to live a normal, upper middle class life. Period. I would not punish them in camps or anything insane, I would like to offer them a decent life and a clear conscious, to be a part of a monumental change in the way our country is governed, and our world.
Leading by example and with grants to other countries.... various countries would be relieved to join such a co olition, and democratically the movement would be unstoppable, if propaganda and lies and banned from the political process, and only addressing issues is allowed. And not with lies. Politicians who are held accountable, not above the law.
Some of you have no idea what you would be walking into/some expect nothing
others way too little
A message was played by throwing the song by the clash with the lines, if Ii stay there will be trouble, if I go there will be trouble.... I did not want the kind of troubles they had going at all, and would not have participated wherever I was. Race wars are a divide and conquer tool. People want the same things, and a few rich at the top can take all that away right now, and have... we live in a world that should be progressing toward paradise, but our priorities got all messed up along the way, when vile men started profiting from war.
I did not where to go and the idea of leaving Chicago, when I had no money and health problems... there was always this assumption by people that I had money, which I never did. I was spending what I had staying stoned enough to deal with what was happening to me. To ignore it. To forget about it for long periods of time, when I could not see my place in the world. When I was told I was hated I was surprised by whom and why? I expected the right wing to despise me but I shared enough of their views that they did not. I am at heart a liberal, and believe collectivism and being an individual is possible; communes filled with artists certainly do not all think alike, disagree heartily on many things, etc.... they simply agree on the essential that mot do. I do not at present think governments or citizens are being responsible. The government needs a centralized leader to push thru change no matter how unpopular it is with the business community.
The trick is the stock market is going to tumble and they have tricked retirees into having all their money there, and I let a criticism about that have a huge effect on me. I wanted to please everyone, and the targets who should have been taken down were often the people who were using me. I am not cruel by nature, I am not hateful.... though Obama made fun of me over the statement, I have always thought of myself as someone who loved everyone in a way. I wrote criticism in voices that were not mine, just jokes to me, being mean to celebrities because everyone was so nice, etc.... spoofing them on my first blog. Gave hateful speeches at a tv conspiracy that I did not understand and took for torture. I spoke to it and acted for it because I could sense gravity but I had no idea. I trusted everyone at first. Now I trust no one at all in the news or on the internet to report on intelligence affairs in any manner that is meaningful to the current situation. Top Secret....
My files are CIA EYES ONLY meaning nothing gets printed, in case they want to just get rid of my file someday with the push of a few buttons. They have me open at the moment and will I would predict as long as they exist, which is a lot less longer than they think. I gave them a second chance for reasons I should not have. Made a rash decision against Bush without ever realizing he was trying to make this right somehow. I just thought if he was firing people in the CIA than they were good guys. I was probably wrong. I would not have done this. There is a lot I would not have done if I knew better. I see why I was portrayed as a Baby.... and the joker/though the Joker as Heath ledger played him was based on me, and he died for that stupid role, was based on my life I felt like I had been totally slandered. I did not understand what purple and green stood for in the intelligence world, though I later learned. Gotham, the latest bathroom show has the Joker with a Cult, a direct reference to me. The Batman fixation with my situation, always trying to destroy me, like they start to call me superman after I did something so now Batman had to kill superman, not some evil villain... because no one in their audience who knew about me was buying their slander anymore.
That film, by using me in a way lot of people hated, caused the death of an actor, and someone to use a guy to shoot up the movie theater when it opened, in Denver, where I guess my power base was. People thought I wanted Colorado, that I was a conqueror at first. One man died to get that on the news.... by getting things in the major media they gave messages to everyone involved across the country. They were doing radical acts at first to get out messages, then the television itself became involved, all part of the fifty year plan... and the tv people were ready, schooled in how the world worked, and about to find themselves being led to a degree by a man who had no idea what was going on out in the world.
To those who died to get me a message.... I swear to you I will never give up the mission that you died for. I will never allow our enemy to have peace without an offer of justice. I will avenge your deaths a hundred times over if I must, though I know you fought so we could overthrow the war makers, and get this countries budget back to the people, instead of the military.... to get rid of the criminals in congress and the senate in one fell blow. Martial Law until the political and judicial system can be reformed. The confiscation of vast resources of hoarded wealth. Those who flee these taxes lose their citizenship, and all properties and businesses confiscated, etc. Hopefully we will get to your money before you do.... I would leave the wealthy with a nice nest egg to live a normal, upper middle class life. Period. I would not punish them in camps or anything insane, I would like to offer them a decent life and a clear conscious, to be a part of a monumental change in the way our country is governed, and our world.
Leading by example and with grants to other countries.... various countries would be relieved to join such a co olition, and democratically the movement would be unstoppable, if propaganda and lies and banned from the political process, and only addressing issues is allowed. And not with lies. Politicians who are held accountable, not above the law.
Thursday, March 2, 2017
the use of my life in operation bluebeam, my ressurection... and the NEW STONES beginning to move from my latest crudifixon
I am trapped in your perceptions, a fly in a web. How ironic that I always wrote about this web around me, where anyone who came at me would be caught. Part of the fiction of my life I thought, the dream world of the book I entered, that occasionally seemed to have some effect on what was reported on the news, or used in the plot of a tv show. I did not know at the time that people were desperate to meet me, and I would have met them... though I was conflicting on the point.
I cannot go back in time, so I explain this with my cosmology, God made better decisions than I could and if I had known more I would have made worse decisions than I did. My knowledge now is growing increasingly irrelevant. I hope this means that the conflicts of stupidity have ended, though I also wish to maintain what power I have in case it is needed, to protect and serve, an old concept I was thought helped the cause. I am not sure if they will make up for their sins or not, that is up to them. My knowledge will never hurt them, and it remains to be seen if it will ever help them again. Never look up to anyone. They all fall. You have yourself. Period.
I had many of you at my debt and did not know, even the debts I would have never asked for. I figured a responsible world would have utilized me properly, though you were too idiotic for that, your long terms plans broken, you would fall back on some just as cruel plan B. I will not fight for any side except the one that is losing, because no one should win or lose. WIN WIN WIN WIN... you asked me once why I said this... and I had written this believing a new time was being entered.
Almost ten years ago now. I do not know how you people deal with this, though I understand better now why you are all using so many drugs, and have to drink yourself into stupors to keep your sanity... or whatever it is you call functioning in a dysfunctional killing machine.
I never quit. That is not programmed into the winner. I will rise from every fall, shake myself off, and as you made fun of so much once, skip off... again, a reference in my mind that I did not bother to make sense of to the audience I did not think would care that much, let alone study my words for codes, or words of wisdom, or whatever.
I never wanted any violence, and should have stopped when the first body fell... though then there would just be more of the same. I want what has been done to the masses, this theft, to be compensated for, if not prosecuted. You do not want this because it could very well get you sent to hell a lot quicker than someone in your place would understand, had you such understanding. Moloch will not save you from God, nor will any of your other false icons.
Too much has happened in that short amount of time to tell me that what can be accomplished is more incredible than I could have imagined. No matter what loss has come to those who would stop the military machine from imperialistic western interests from taking over the world.... we must continue. From your secret societies you mist subvert. They will only protect you so long and then you will be judged, after the adequate intelligence is supplied to me.... who is the only one I trust to advocate such an action, let alone give the final orders on carrying it out... which is not something I like to do. You know better than me but in other ways you do not. I am the moral compass and if I point away from your actions, do not follow them.
I do not know who is friend or foe or even why? From this position you wish me to give up? I know a couple friends, and they will have to be enough. They have no reason to betray me, and every reason to keep me around. As long as my enemies have no reason to come for me, they are safe for now... which is untenable with some. I would have them removed from their power bases, removed from the forest for this road we are building out, from this world of lies the criminals have had to construct to hide their crimes..
I cannot go back in time, so I explain this with my cosmology, God made better decisions than I could and if I had known more I would have made worse decisions than I did. My knowledge now is growing increasingly irrelevant. I hope this means that the conflicts of stupidity have ended, though I also wish to maintain what power I have in case it is needed, to protect and serve, an old concept I was thought helped the cause. I am not sure if they will make up for their sins or not, that is up to them. My knowledge will never hurt them, and it remains to be seen if it will ever help them again. Never look up to anyone. They all fall. You have yourself. Period.
I had many of you at my debt and did not know, even the debts I would have never asked for. I figured a responsible world would have utilized me properly, though you were too idiotic for that, your long terms plans broken, you would fall back on some just as cruel plan B. I will not fight for any side except the one that is losing, because no one should win or lose. WIN WIN WIN WIN... you asked me once why I said this... and I had written this believing a new time was being entered.
Almost ten years ago now. I do not know how you people deal with this, though I understand better now why you are all using so many drugs, and have to drink yourself into stupors to keep your sanity... or whatever it is you call functioning in a dysfunctional killing machine.
I never quit. That is not programmed into the winner. I will rise from every fall, shake myself off, and as you made fun of so much once, skip off... again, a reference in my mind that I did not bother to make sense of to the audience I did not think would care that much, let alone study my words for codes, or words of wisdom, or whatever.
I never wanted any violence, and should have stopped when the first body fell... though then there would just be more of the same. I want what has been done to the masses, this theft, to be compensated for, if not prosecuted. You do not want this because it could very well get you sent to hell a lot quicker than someone in your place would understand, had you such understanding. Moloch will not save you from God, nor will any of your other false icons.
Too much has happened in that short amount of time to tell me that what can be accomplished is more incredible than I could have imagined. No matter what loss has come to those who would stop the military machine from imperialistic western interests from taking over the world.... we must continue. From your secret societies you mist subvert. They will only protect you so long and then you will be judged, after the adequate intelligence is supplied to me.... who is the only one I trust to advocate such an action, let alone give the final orders on carrying it out... which is not something I like to do. You know better than me but in other ways you do not. I am the moral compass and if I point away from your actions, do not follow them.
I do not know who is friend or foe or even why? From this position you wish me to give up? I know a couple friends, and they will have to be enough. They have no reason to betray me, and every reason to keep me around. As long as my enemies have no reason to come for me, they are safe for now... which is untenable with some. I would have them removed from their power bases, removed from the forest for this road we are building out, from this world of lies the criminals have had to construct to hide their crimes..
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